Welcome to 25 ?

     Hi! It's 1st of January 2021!

Honestly I don't believe that I'm already 25? Like seriously it's a joke for me. Is this how it feel to be 25? This is not what as I imagine of 25 y/o is. When I was a teenager, I see people around age of 25 - 30 is an as adult, matured, stable and as someone that I can depend to. But looking back to myself at 25, I don't have any of it. It's a scam! What have I done throughout all of this years? Did I contribute anything? I don't even remember. It feels like I didn't do a lot of things. I wasted my time worrying about my future that I didn't really live on my present. I've made my decision. I want to live the way I want without worrying anything. I want to try everything I want. I don't want to regrets anything.

    2020 teach me a lot. I'm the type of person who planned everything and made sure that I can fulfill it. I started planning my life when I was 16. At that moment my goal was to be a psychologist and get my master degree at 24. I made a research on how to go through that path and I manage to do it. Alhamdulillah. After SPM, enter science foundation for a year, later get my first choice on UPU to further my degree in psychology for 3 years and continue in master degree counselling psychology for 2 years. I thought everything going as I plan but then COVID-19 appeared. Lol

    All of my batch need to postpone our last semester (practical) because we cannot do counselling session during the pandemic. So basically my plan was dragged and I can't fulfill my goal to graduate by 24. Honestly I was a bit sad because only one semester is left and why the hell did COVID appeared at that time. It took me for a while to accept the situation and I learned to accept it anyway. The whole world are being affected and it's not just about me. I know that there's nothing that I can do about it. It's not that I can make the vaccines. Lol

I believe that everything happens for a reason and Allah knows better. Let just pray for the best. I hope that 2021 would be the best year for all of us. Amin.

    And I don't know if anyone ever felt like you never thought about relationship? Is it not normal? I don't know why my friends keep saying that I should find someone and try to be in a relationship because honestly I never be in a relationship for the past 25 years. I do feel grateful to them for worrying about me but I'm okay. I don't know how to explain this but it's not that I don't want to be in a relationship. I do really want but I just haven't found someone that I'm really interested in. I believe when the time comes it will come. No need to rush. 

Let just pray for the best! 

    And I don't want to plan anything for this year. 

    I just want to live happily and hoping for the best for 2021 💪

    Good luck for all of us! 💗

Al Sakinah Eco Resort,Janda Baik

PSYCHOLOGY COUNSELLING RETREAT 2019 💝

My fellow classmates. We're the future counselors 💖 
Btw why am I the only one who didn't stare at the lens ek? 😂

Heyyy peepss. It's been 3 years since my last post. But yaaa. I'm back! Hee. Actually every weekend there must be a program or something that made me busy or  I'm just in the mood of not doing anything.. But today I feel the urge to make this post because why not? I don't have any plan this weekend so I'm thinking that, why not if I'm spending my time posting this right? 🙆

        Okay so I would like to share my experience on my first class retreat ever 💗 We were having our retreat at Al Sakinah Eco Resort, Janda Baik. What I can say about this place is, yaa it's great. Like seriously I would recommend it to you guys. If you love nature, this place suits your taste! The food? yaaa deliciousssss! The accomodation? Great! The room? Spacious and comfortable. Basically it feels like 'rumah kampung' because obviously it's 'rumah kayu'. It has 3 bedrooms, 5 people can share one bedroom and there is a toilet for each room. So don't worry if you're afraid to go to toilet at 2 or 3 a.m. Hahahh 😂 Okayy enough with the place. So I'm gonna talk more about our activities. 😍

Owhh ya, before I forgot, there is a river at the entrance of this resort okay! You can enjoy and play water with your family or friends 👀

So, this is the riverrrrr. 👆

Okay, Let's move on to our retreat. Heee

        I thought it was great because as you know my degree classmates never ever did this because we were too many like 120 people so it's kinda hard to make anything because there are too many ideas, commitment, clique, and we're just not in the same page I guess 😛. But now in my master degree we're just like 19 or 20. So we could make anything possible. We got someone who planned everything and all of us involved ourselves to make it happen. So yaaa it's happened..

       The first thing that we did is basically ice breaking. Every program always start with it right? 😏 We played, I don't really remember it's name, maybe it's called 'paku payung'? It exist right? I'm not really sure. Hahahhh. But anywayy it's fun. It's been a long time since I played such game. So here's the pictures. And  btw you need to rent this hall if you wanna use it okay! Ask the resort, I don't know the rate.

                       

 

                         

 

      After that, we were divided into groups for the counselling session. We did about 3, 4 or 5 session. Ohh myy god. I don't remember again. I'm not senile yet! Don't think it that way okay 😂

And here is my group 💜

We shared a lot of things and yaa we did it mates! 💗
 Btw in the middle is Dr Chong a.k.a my habibi 😂

We did a lot of things during the session but of course I can't share it because it is confidential 😊 If you guys wanna know, actually every counselling session must be keep as confidential so don't worry if you wanna share about anything. It's our ethics as a counselor and we can't break it! It just between us and if you wanna come for a counselling session, you can contact me through my email balkishabkadir@gmail.com 💓

        Okay back to retreat stories. Sorry guys. This is what I am, I'm easily distracted. I can tell you a lot of different stories at one time. So just bear with me okay 😁 It's not that I'm saying gibberish right? It's just an additional information I guess? Hahahh okay let's stop here.

Okay this time I'm really gonna talk about retreat! So we did sukaneka such as coconut bowling, throwing balloons using 'kain batik' and tranferring 'getah gelang' using straws. That's all as far I can remember. Nopee, This time I'm really sure it's only 3 games. See, I'm not senile yet. 😂. The retreat were only 3 days and 2 nights and a lot of time were used on counselling session. So I can't really shared a lot of things with you guys since it's confidential.

As I wanted to end this post, I just remembered about our Arabian Night! I haven't share it yet right? Omg Balkishhhh. What's wrong with you?! Hahahahh. So let me share about the Arabian Night! But the funny things are, it's not really arabian. We just wore JUBAH HITAMM 😂. It's really just a night full of laughers. The performances for every groups were hella funnyyyy omgg I'm laughing like crazy right now remembering it. I don't have the videos so I can't share with you guys. Sorry. HAHAHHH

Okay guys. That's all for today 💕 I'm tired already. Byee. See you soon 😎

Bukit Batu Chondong

Puncak Bukit Batu Chondong

First reaction that I got from my friends are , "Mana doe bukit chondong tu?" , "Wujud ke bukit chondong tu?", "Tak pernah dengar pun" and etc. And yaaaaa.. this place exist and it is situated at Kemensah. Only took about an hour from UKM Bangi. Tapi seriuslah nak masuk tu memang dalam giler. Mula-mula memang dah takut lah sebab jalan makin lama makin kecik and curam. Terlaju or terbabas memang jatuh ke bawah lah citernya. But syukur Alhamdulillah selamat sampai. Anyway, tempat ni memang betul2 belakang Zoo Negara. Masuk lah dekat lorong kecik tu tepi gate zoo negara tu. Mula-mula memang takde apa-apa. Then bila dah masuk dalam lagi tu ada air terjun, chalet, kampung-kampung. 

Dekat sini ada dua aktiviti. Sama ada nak naik ATV or daki bukit chondong ni. Tapi bukit ni takdelah tinggi mana, tapi track dia lah payah sikit. Hampir sesat sebab salah jalan, So mata memang kena tajam lah tengok track and petunjuk. Bukit chondong ni ada 4 puncak, satu puncak tu senang lah nak naik, pejam mata pun boleh. Tapi lagi tiga puncak tu ,payahhhh doe.  Nasib baiklah masa kami pergi tu ada group pendaki profesional. Dorang lah yang tolong bagi step-step macam mana nak naik and turun. Kalau takde dorang menangis lerr kiteorang kat atas bukit tu tak turun-turun. Ahahaha. Ada tali, and kalau tersilap pijak and tangan tak kuat, jatuh ke bawah lerr citernya. 

Nampak dalam gambar macam senang, tapi realitinyaaaaaa.. rasa lah sendiri sana. Ahahaha

 Dekat pendakian sebelum ke puncak nilah kasut aku kopak.  So masa nak turun ke bawah tu memang kasut tu dah nyawa-nyawa ikan lah.. Tapi syukur Alhamdulillah kasut tu masih mampu bertahan sampai ke bawahh.. aduhaiiii.. nak gelak je bila ingat balikkk..

80% sebelum sampai ke puncak bukit.

We did it!!!!

Sebelum start mendaki ni motto kami "We don't need man at all" Tapi lepas mendaki ni kami tarik balik kata-kata kami. Terima kasih ye pada group pendaki yang tolong kami tu.. Kalau tak sampai sekarang ni, kami masih dekat atas bukit tu, tak reti nak turunnn.. Ahahahahaha

LAWATAN KE PENJARA KAJANG

Penjara Wanita Kajang

18 May 2016 - A new experience that I would never ever forget it.. Heyy . I got a chance to enter the prison lahhhhh. It's really a rare opportunity and thanks to our lecturer Dr. Rahim for giving us this new opportunity. The first thing that we need to do before enter the prison is to make sure that kita masuk dalam tu sehelai sepinggang.. We can't bring anything and for sure, phone is not excluded. I already bayangkan dah konon-konon nak ambil gambar from the inside of the prison but we can't..

           So for sure I'm feeling excited,but at the same time, I feel scared. But things get better after we met the policewomen. Like seriously all of them are beautiful and kind. Muda-muda lagi kot semua.. Suddenly feeling insecure. Ahahaha

           The first place that we go is Bengkel Jahitan. I met a lot of foreigners there and I ask the police officer if they understand Malay Language and she said yaaaaa.. they understand and sooner or later they'll know how to speak in Bahasa Melayu. They made baju kurung and many other clothes. Many people tempah with them as the price is reasonable and the quality is confirmed.

           And yaaaa.. after that we go to the Taska, Bakery and Bengkel mencanting batik. My perception about prison change 360 degree,, Like seriously I couldn't believe it. It's just like a place that trained people to do something that would benefit them for the future. That's why the police officer said that now the prison is a place for 'Pemuliharaan' . They wanna help the prisoner to be a better person in the future.

          The last place that we go is their Gallery. Semua hasil tangan mereka ditempatkan di gallery itu and dijual. Like seriously it's looks like from a proffesional beb..

So this is our lecturer Dr. Rahim and my psychology coursemates.

Erased ( Boku Dake ga Inai Machi )

The best anime for 2016

What can be worse than today???I'm really in a bad mood because Erased already ended for this season. ohhhhh noooooo... I really can't accept it. I love how this anime is different from other animes. And the best quote from this anime are "I need a buddies,not a casual friends" and  "I believe in you is another word of you begging someone to believe you". Like seriously this quote brings a positive impact to ourselves. It's feel like everyone need a real good friend not just someone that you barely know but a friend that always be there for you no matter what happen and always support you . And the word "I believe in you" is also a magic word that everyone loves to hear it from someone that they trust. Anyway, Satoru and Kenya were just a great team. I really love how Kenya act so matured eventhough he is just a kid. He can understand the adult of Satoru. Lastly,this anime also teach us about the burden that we need to share with someone else. Always talk to someone that you trust if you got any problems so that you can be a better version of  yourself.. Okayyy. I don't want to talk much about it. I don't wanna a spoiler you know. Ahahaha...

Koutetsujou no Kabaneri vs Attack on Titan

            The new anime for 2016 is definitely KOUTETSUJOU NO KABANERI it gonna be a hit! The genre is action guys!! Hewhewhew. My favorite genres! Like seriously I can't wait to watch it! The trailer already made me die a little more! Ahahaha.  Many of anime fans are being excited about this anime but there are also some of them criticized it. Many of them said that it is just a copy of Attack on Titans but seriously NO guys! It's totally a different thing !! Although they use Eren's voice but still it doesn't make the storyline same. Right?? Hewhewhew 

Both of them are different right??

 

In KnK it is more to the zombies rather than in AoT it is the real titan. So it's totally different okayyy.

 So to anyone who haven't watched the trailer, now just go and watch it. Heeeeee..

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=57s944PdlEA


And the best parts is, they got a trains! Ahahaha.






          

ALL ABOUT ANIME!

MY LOVE KANEKI !!

What did I do todayyy??!! Rewatching my favourite anime TOKYO GHOUL! I've been waiting for years for the new seasons. And there is a rumors that the new season will be released this year!! 2016!! OMG !!  It was reported that the season 3 may be launching this summer guyssss... Arghhhhhhhh.. At last!! I can't wait!!!
      I started watching anime when I was a kid and the first anime is Shaman King!! Yaaaa.. I love Asakura Yoh!! He is damn so cool. And for sure Manta! the cute little boy. I was wondering why must he be too small from the other kid but that's okayyyy.. That's what makes him cute.. OMG!! .. it really hold my childhood memories.. Ahahahaha.. Then I watch Inuyasha, Prince of Tennis, Naruto, Attack on Titan, Fullmetal Alchemist, Fate Stay Night, My Little Monster and many other animes...... 
      The genres that I'm interested  are basically horror and action. I'm not really interested in love or romantic genres. I always had a dream that I'm going into their world and  I've been to Konoha a few times in my dreams and I got the chance to meet Shikamaru, Lee, and many other. But I didn't get the chance to meet GAARA my love!! But it's okayyy. At least, I can feel their feeling living in Konoha.. Ahahahahaha.. 
      Okayyyy.. That's all for todayy..